When I start to blame my lack of blogging on working, I stop myself as I know stay at home moms who are having just as much trouble as I am in keeping their blogs up. The problem is that once the kid is in bed, there is just so much left to do and no energy to do it. I use my reserves to cook dinner, pay bills or walk the dog. On the nights where there is nothing left I simply veg in front of the television. And, there is a lot of couch potato action these days.
I never was a couch potato, but motherhood has zapped something from me. About January I went to get a physical because I couldn’t stand not feeling like myself any more. I appreciate that my male doctor heard me out. Being a parent, he made some suggestions that helped such as “turn off the baby monitor”. F’s room is close enough that if he is truly upset we will hear him. In the morning as we all start to wake his babble is unmistakable. He also told me what I already knew….exercise, it does a body good. Easier said than done, which is why the dog is also five pounds overweight as I write this.
My doctor ordered all the standard tests—thyroid, vitamin D [super low]. I went back to acupuncture, took my vitamins and I did start to sleep through the night again. Yet, six months later I am still tired, not exercising and not blogging. Though, I can tell you about the season finale of The Bachelorette [weakest season ever].
How do I get over this hump? Is it a physical block or a mental block? Or, is it all connected? This is where I am calling on my extended mom community out there. How are you feeling these days? Are you getting enough sleep? Do you feel normal again?
In re-reading this post a day later, I sound like I am whining…and maybe I am, but I just want to be a strong, athletic woman again and not the reigning champion of couch bowling.